God, life has been stressful for me lately. I'm pretty much failing English 10H, I'm getting a 68 in Spanish when I thought I was doing great, a 70 in Geometry because of the god dang proofs, and I'm getting a 69 in AP History (jokes later).

Anyways, I'm getting my arse handed to me. I'm probably, no, I KNOW I'm going to be grounded, I have that Secret Santa (I've been procrastinating with the admins, even though the deadline is in a few days) and....

STRESS. BLOODY FUCKING STRESS.

I wonder why I never bothered to post here before, it's safer than Facebook or DeviantART, so I'll just say why I'm upset knowing that it won't effect the few watchers I have! I LIKE SOMEONE FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE 7TH FREAKING GRADE. IT'S ALSO THE FIRST GIRL I HAVE FEELINGS FOR. SHE HAS A GIRLFRIEND, WHO LIVES ACROSS STATE, AND MY ONE FRIEND SAYS THAT "You two would make a cute couple!" AND "Oh, they don't get along that well anyways!". SHE'S ALREADY THE CLINGY TYPE, SO OF COURSE SHE'S HUGGY AND KISSY AND WHATNOT, BUT SHE'S LIKE THAT WITH EVERYONE!

Oh, and SHE KNOWS I LIKE HER. IT'S CONFIRMED AND EVERYTHING.

Yeah, I'm kinda sorta...bleh.

Love sucks, life sucks. I cried for the first time since the whole thing started! It was in AP! And it was just a few tears in my eyes that I quickly wiped away, but still! Life. Every one of my friends (well, not all) found out, and my one friend (who doesn't even KNOW her) said she "could tell." GREAT, LIKE WE DON'T GET ENOUGH SHIT IN GYM AND BIO.

Oh, and the whole "she found out thing?" Haha...that was just fail. Epic, epic, epic fail. Apparently ranting on your DA journal like I am right now can make it obvious, and her asking "Is she in your Bio?" when she knows damn well she's the only one I even STAND in my Bio class doesn't help at all!

Dammit, it's times like this I'm glad she doesn't have a LifeJournal. If she did....haha, shit. shit. shit.

It's gotten a little bit awkward, but that's just part of the problem. Some times, she hugs me and stuff like that, but other times she doesn't want any hugs or stuff like that. A lot of other things make me think that she MIGHT have feelings for me, but...part of me thinks I'm just getting my hopes up so I don't hang myself or anything. Haha, that's a bit drastic! Even for me!

But, yeah. That's why I'm failing school, failing life, that sort of stuff. I can only cry in 1st period and online! GO ME! ;v;

~Alyssa

Oh, I should do that Secret Santa stuff while I'm thinking about it...

Go on either:

• Facebook
• DeviantART
• Hetalia LJ community
• MyAnimeList

A slap in the face.

I don't use any apps on my phone (I have the OLD LG Chocolate, it sucks and can't even read the SD card anymore), and I guess the only web app I use is Greasemonkey sometimes.

In a few hours, I will be 15, so what better time to post a journal?

My tablet started to work again, and I was able to color in one of my fanart pieces.


Fem!Talia (Felicia). She is just too adorable~And I really love how this came out!

This is another Felicia pic I did, but on the tablet alone.


lmao, I have two different styles from pencils to tablet XD

And some old art:

Belarus <3


Panda!China! Isn't he cute, aru?!

I guess I should put my DeviantART account: http://www.gottaluvthev13.deviantart.com/

Thanks for viewing my crappy art~

Title: The Third Signature
Author/Artist: Me
Character(s) or Pairing(s): North Italy, hints of Germany/N. Italy, mentions of Romano
Rating: PG for mild language I guess
Warnings: Angst, sadness, crappy writing
Summary: That October day the declaration was sent, many emotions filled the Italians. One full of happiness, one of disdain.


It's over, he thought.

The declaration had been sent.

Italy knew that a letter of that importance would be delivered the same day. It had already been typed up and everything. All that was needed were the signatures. You can tell a lot about people from them. One was signed gracefully, yet flourished. It had been art in itself the way it had been written, radiating true joy and happiness:

Italia Romano.

Romano was in a joyous mood, why wouldn't he be? Not only was he joining the winning team, he was declaring war on that Potato Bastard! His mark on that paper was much more beautiful than that of his younger.

Italia Veneziano. 

It was slow and choppy, with blots of ink from when he had paused, wishing for this all to be a terrible dream, to wake up next to his comrade in bed, where he wanted to be the most at that moment. The sudden jerks of ink from when his brother shouted, "Hurry up, dammit! The sooner that kraut gets it, the better!" There were also blotches of smeared ink, weak paper, and the telltale scent of salt from the tears that had fallen onto the paper. They were Italy's tears, making their own signature. All too quickly, the letter was sent. The title was burned into Italy's mind:

Declaration of War.

It pained him to see those words. How could he declare war on his comrade, his ally, his best friend? He thought of when they had first become allies. How they had formed their pact of steel, how Italy came up with the name, Axis Powers. He also remembered the damned promise he said he'd keep.

"If I'm ever in a pinch, you can help me. And if you're ever in a pinch, I'll help you."

Italy choked on that thought, knowing that he hadn't helped him at all. It was always Germany coming to his rescue, Germany saving him from England, Germany saving him from traps, Germany knowing he was too weak. And what had Italy done to repay him? Side with the Allies! Bitter tears stung his eyes, much like the ones that sealed his name on the letter. The third signature. The one of guilt, depression, and betrayal. On this autumn day, those emotions were spread, knowing that the next victim would be the recipient of these terrible emotions. Germany would soon find out, as he opened the envelope.

Random author notes no one cares about! According to many sources (Wikipedia), Italy joined up with the Allied Forces after losing the battle from September 3rd, 1943--September 16, 1943. However, on October 13, 1943, Italy formally declared war on Germany. October 13, to me personally is a pretty important day. IT'S MAH BIRTHDAY. Haha, yeah. When I found out about that happening on my birthday, I was in the Hetalia fandom. So of COURSE I wanted to write an angsty fic about my favorite couple declaring war 51 years to the day before I was born! I mean, who wouldn't?! But seriously, I was going to write a fic about this, I just happened to find out the actual event happened on my birthday. (I thought the declaring war thing happened in September...that's what you get for going 2 years without learning about WWII!) But anyways, I got the idea from the title from the Code Geass OST, "The First Signature." The music doesn't go with the fic though that much..."Stories" is more of the song that fits this, IMO. Fanfiction.net is down for me at the time, but expect this to be on it when it comes back up. Thanks for putting up with this fiction, and the notes that are longer than the actual story! orz

lol, yeah, Art :3 This is all from my DeviantART account, but it's in my scraps, so don't bother looking for it. My tablet is acting stupid, so until it's done acting stupid, my art isn't going to have color. *angst* So...here's some sketches!



Comic I did at 3 in the morning...the dog is Fluffy from Harry Potter...I've recently gotten into HP (lol, late~), and I'm on book 3. I have other HP/APH art, for example:


BIG IMAGES ARE BIIIIIG~


Arthur and Ivan...Iggy's in Gryffindor and Russia's in Slytherin...lol, yeah...with color it'll look awesome.



Why, yes, that IS Poland in Gothic Lolita! Hahahahaha....I have no idea why I drew that...


Here's how I got my idea: I was at some park concert, and I asked my dad, "Pick a country." Knowing I'm into Hetalia, he said, "Draw Prussia, ballet dancing." So...here it is! I can't draw hands, legs or feet to save my life OTL

But this pic I'm proud of:



GANGSTA!Doitsu in the HIZ-OUSE! This'll be one of the best ones I've drawn...MY EGO IS BOOSTING~! Thanks to my loving mom for posing her hand for a model! And Italy is sooo his homeboi...XD;; If you don't get it, Prussia calls Germany "West," riite? So, I was randomly thinking, "West....siiiiiiide!" Just wait, I'm going to draw GerIta with West Side Story. JUST YOU WAIIT....!

So, that's all the artwork for today, just a bunch of crappy sketches. Expect colored ones soon~!

Yeah...my avvie XD Random quiz tiem!

 

1. Go to the 4th folder in your computer where you store your pictures.
2. Pick the 4th picture in that folder.
3. Explain the picture.
4. Tag 4 people to do the same!

Well, I have only 3 picture folders, so...

Folder #1--Neko-Lelouch tied up with pink ribbon. It's my profile pic on Fanfiction.net
Folder #2--Old Kataang icon...so old it's when Katara and Sokka found Aang in the iceburg XD
Folder #3--Mythical Detective Loki Ragnarok desktop I found online. I need to rewatch that anime~

Well, that was random. I have to go work on some art, MAL is down (Thank God, MyAnimeList has been infested with trolls...>.>)

Ah, never mind, it's back up.

But...yeah, today's my 1 year anniversary on that site. It's also my parent's. 16th I think. Yeah.

So...I'm gonna go lurk some more, and maybe draw. Yeah, that's how I roll~

~Alyssa

I should post on here moar often...

Whatever songs I'm in the mood for!

Here's a list of a bunch of my favorite songs:

http://www.playlist.com/playlist/16692204299

I've decided to break in my new account by taking a quiz. People who read this are going to see a LOT of these types of quizzes *evil laugh*

I Hate…

[X] public speaking
[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[x] Rejection
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[x] heights
[x] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders
[] flowers or other plants
[] that Scary guy...
[] being touched
[] fire
[x] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[]my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[]my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] the grim reaper
[] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[x] clowns
[] dolls
[X] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[x] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[] growing up
[] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[] blood
[x] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[x] throwing up
[] fallinginlove
[] super secret
[x] yellow
[x] goverment

Final Total:  24
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

I Like/Love

[] public speaking
[X] the dark
[] staying single forever
[] Rejection
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[X] fish (I SHALL NAME IT SQUISHY AND IT SHALL BE MY SQUISHY)
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants
[x] that Scary guy... (LOL I AM THAT SCARY GUY XD)
[] being touched
[X] fire
[] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death (GAWD IM SO EMO!)
[x] the grim reaper
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[] large crowds of people
[x] men
[x] women
[] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[x] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[] poverty
[X] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[] growing up
[] creepy noises in the night (i.e stalkers)
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[X] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secret
[] yellow
[] goverment

Final Total: 14
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling since you "like/love" a lot.
If you get more than 20, you’re over adverage for normal liking etc.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're below normal (WHY!!!).
People who dont have any are liars AND THEY ARE

Girlish
[x] I love at least one shade of pink.
[] I don't like being messy.
[x] My belongings are organized.
[] I don't like rock music.
[] I like wearing accessories all the time.
[x] Bright colours amaze me.
[] I hate black.
[] I go to the salon once a week.
[x] I comb my hair almost all the time.
[x] I bring my phone with me everywhere.

Boyish
[x] I wear baggy pants.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I listen to boy bands like My Chemical,good charlotte, blink182, threedaysgrace.
[x] I like wearing jackets with hoods.
[X] I'm too lazy to do chores.
[] I don't like shopping.
[] I like to go bungee jumping.
[] I like being sweaty.
[] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes.
[x] I barely wear perfume.

Nerdy
[x] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket.
[] I enjoy studying.
[] I wear glasses.
[] I'm a straight-A student.
[] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[] I like my shirt tucked in
[] My favorite subject is science. (Hate science)
[x] I enjoy reading books.
[] My assignments are always passed on time.
[] I correct people with their grammar.(only teachers to piss them off, but that doesn't count XD)

Emo
[X] I love the color black.
[] I always sit at the corner.
[x]One side of my hair is covering one side of my face unless behind ear.
[X] I like listening to metal rock music.
[x] I have a lot of problems in my life.
[x] I'm not much of a loud person.
[] I don't talk much.
[X] I don't have that many friends.
[] I barely have fun.
[x] I barely go out with my folks or friends.

Childish
[] I am open to my parents.
[x] I sleep with a stuff toy.
[x] I watch cartoons.
[/] I don't like watching horror movies. (No R rated ones, only PG-13 XD;;;;;;)
[] I sleep with a night light.
[] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.
[] I'm scared of roller coasters.
[] I like being with my family relatives.
[] I take bubble baths.
[x] I've ran around the house in my underwear.

Popular
[] A lot of people adore me.
[] I hangout with the coolest crew
[] My parents are loaded.
[] I get everything I want.
[] I don't wear the same outfit twice.
[] I always have the latest gadgets.
[x] I'm updated to the latest gossips.
[x] I don't like people blocking my way.
[] I have a lot of friends.
[] A lot of people look to me.

Girlish: 5
Boyish: 6
Nerdy: 2
Emo: 7
Childish: 3.5
Popular: 2

YAY NOW YOU KNOW ABOUT ME~


~Alyssa

Whoo~ I lost my LJ virginity...in a VERY weird way O_____o

Um....soo.....

My name is Alyssa. I like anime. I draw even though I have no talent. AT ALL. Seriously.

Hm.............


So....I'll post crap when it happens. Yay!



Um....bye? I guess? haha....^^;;;


~Alyssa